j a M i e

Sun, 21 May 2006 18:56:31 GMT

haventtt wrote in here in forever. just wanted to say i'll be home on saturday, until the 16th. then i'm off to germany. hope everythings well with everyone.

Mon, 27 Feb 2006 21:56:48 GMT

hey friends. haha. my like two friends. well, now a days it seems like i only have one. it's all good though.

new phone #-
954-707-8109

text me. call me. do something.

anywaaays. this shit sucks here. my ait class isn't going to start for like a month. so i sit here all day doing nothing, waiting for the next stupid detail to get sent out on. i may be coming home for like a week shortly though. because i honestly am going to go crazy sitting around here. not doing any kind of training, or taking any classes.

itss okay though. it'll all be over before i know. i can't wait to find out where my permanent duty station is going to be.

i'm so sick of living with so many girls.

cigarette break.

annnd i'm done.

Tue, 21 Feb 2006 22:32:58 GMT

hey hey hey. long time, no write eh? lol.

well. the army life is grand. hah. i finally graduated from basic training on the 17th. now i'm in ait. it's great. we're treated much better. we get to go around post, off post on the weekends, smoke, eat whatever. goood stuff.

i miss home though. a lot. in about 7-8 weeks i'll be coming home for a week or two, thank god.

to everyone who nevverr wrote me: fuck you. not reallly. but don't pretend you missed me when i come back around. i just can't stand how so many people were like "omg im going to write you all the time". obviously you're not going to write ALL the time. but when i don't receive one letter from you in an 11 week period, when you made those comments...that's a bit crazzy.

but i don't really care anymore.

can't wait to see some of you! im getting a new cell phone this week, so i'll post the # when i do get it.

k i gottaaa go. chow time.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 05:33:46 GMT

so once again it's been awhile since i've written.

this time i have some major news.

i joined the army, and i leave on the 21st for fort jackson. i'm kind of excited, kind of nervous, kind of anxious. a lot of mixed emotions right now.

the only things that are really hard right now is quitting smoking, and saying goodbye to people, which i'm trying to not make a big deal out of, but it really is.

but i know this is all for the best, and i can't wait.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 18:06:10 GMT

sO yesterday i finally got my mothafuckin license. how awesome is that. thank you kaitlin. for like.. making me learn how to drive. taking me out practicing. and letting me take the test in your car. i LooVe you.

and then comes a car. and life will be great.

last night me, cody, kaitlin and eddie went and saw war of the worlds. fucking great movie.

my grandmas been living with us for like a week, and she moved to georgia today =( i'm sad.

i got the new twiztid cd yesterday. haven't listened to it much yet. but i'm about to go watch the DVD.

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 05:06:45 GMT

i'm sososo bored.

and i have horrible cramps.

and i hate when people say they're going to call and they don't.

anyways. so me and kaitlin most definitley got the bsb cd june 14th, around 1am. it was a fun little adventure. went to the walmart on flamingo, made friends with these 2 girls. they ended up being sold out already, bc they only recieved about 12 copies. so we race to the sawgrass walmart with the 2 other girls, and we got it. it was lovely. and the cd is fucking awesome.

i talked to tiffany for awhile the other night. that was nice. i miss her. she'll be down soOon.

kaitlins likke totally the best. today i was having a bad day. and she bought me a pretty braclet. and gave me some of her chocolate malt balls. hah. then showed up while i was working with some candles, and a shirt she bought me. . . awW i love her.

soo tommorow, my first day off in 3 weeks, is no longer a day off. meaning, 4 weeks in a row with no day off. okay, i took off last thursday night for codys birthday, but other than that. not one. i'm getting really fucking burnt out. can't wait until july 17th, when my vacation starts. and i'm gone doing amaazing things for almost a month. the gathering. new york!!/new jersey. six flags. bsb concert. etc etc etc.

i've been strongly considering something for the past like 8 hours. it's so random. and i don't quite know how this popped into my head. and i know if i tell anybody they're all going to say noooO. but i think it could be a great thing for me.

this is a really long entry. for me, i think.

ps. i love playing poker. and i can't wait until i'm winning world poker tours. etc. hahah.

pps. i love cody.

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 02:08:17 GMT

i'm so tiiired.

but, i made $80 dollars tonight, and for only working 4 hours, i'd say that's great.

so i'm sitting in the "business center" of the hampton inn. because i'm currently living here until they finish tenting my house. it's fun. i feel like i'm on vacation, but i'm actually far from it.

i hate people.

nothing else to say really. tommorow's codys 19th birthday. we're going to benihanas.

Thu, 02 Jun 2005 00:55:21 GMT

today has been one of the wost fucking days ever. especially the last 3 hours or so. working 13 hours, and putting up with everyones bullshit, then being stupid fucking me and being superwoman for anybody who needs me. god damn. then coming home to our landlord being an asshole to my mother, i wish i could come across some money and get my mom out of this hell hole. everythings all fucked up right now.

now i'm going to go see the sisterhood of the traveling pants by myself. i don't care, i like doing things by myself sometimes, i guess. i love you.

godddddddddddddi just want to fucking slice somebodys throat right now.

Wed, 25 May 2005 19:35:16 GMT

last night was amazing. we picked up our tickets, and they kind of sucked. alot. but we made the best of it. and after the first few sets we snuck down into section 102. which was much better.

the backstreet boys were fucking amazing. i missed them. me and kaitlin acted like two twelve year olds, freaking out, screaming, crying, singing. hahah, it was great. i love us!! it was beautiful. there new cd comes out june 14th. it's been like 5 years since black and blue came out. im sososo excited. i loooveee you kaitlin<333 im so glad i have you to freak out about bsb with. june 13th. 12am. walmart. ahhhh.

i fell in love with gavin degraw. gwen was fantastic. we realized ciara isnt that great by herself. it's much better on the radio, when she has ludacris, missy, or whoever else in her song. the pussycat dolls made me laugh. don't cha is a fucking awesome song, but not live. jesse mccartney, i'm not really a fan of, but it was fun. ryan cabrera was lovely, as usual. mario was fun? i guess. i called my sister and let her listen the whole time. lindsay lohan hosted, and she really did get that skinny. it's kind of sad. her boobn are gone. her face and chest look caved in. anyway. overall great time. i never do updates like this. but im bored. so whatev.

today my mom gets out of the hospital=). she keeps telling me that she thinks i have my mom back. that doesnt really make sense, but to me it does.

i have graduation from cpa tommorow. booo. i'm so sad. i don't want it to be over.

andd then flanagans graduation on saturday. which would have been the class i graduated with if i didn't graduate early. so it shall be nice.

i love me sometimes.

Mon, 23 May 2005 05:09:41 GMT

so, so tired, but i decided to update anyway.

everythings really gay right now. but it's cool.

i went to busch gardens a few days ago with brittany. fun times.

tuesdaayy is summer splash with my kaitlin. BSB what nigga what! then thursday is my graduation from my police class. but alll is well, after that i will be in citizens on partrol, and life will be grand. THeEn saturday is flanagans graduation, and i'm attending with kaitlins family.

wow this summer is going to be amazing. the gathering with cody, etc. then new york and new jersey with kaAitlin. i finally get to see NYC.

i don't feel right.

oh yeah, you're welcome.

i'm starving. i want a huge cheeseburger.

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 08:04:42 GMT

it's 3:30. why am i not sleeping? i have to wake up early tommorow. meet with the personal trainer. go to the broward mall with kaitlin and lauren. then hopefully hang out with cody before he goes to work.

i can't really explain why. but i am so fucking upset/angry/bllleeehh right now. i feel as if my feelings don't matter. and yes, you. i am talking to you pretty much. don't question it, because this time i am talking about you. she says the same things i pretty much said three months ago. except i haven't talked about it since then and it's gotten 100 times worse. and now all of the sudden you realize what you've turned into/how you've changed. whatever. atleast somebody helped you realize it. i was going to sit down and talk to you about everything i feel about this, but i'm not so sure that it's worth it. whatever. and thanks for calling me when you got out of work, like you said you would. but i'm totally used to that now.

i'll probally delete this real soon.

whoooo knows.

class was great tonight. it's almost over. that kills me.

k i need to get to bed. for real.

Thu, 28 Apr 2005 03:25:13 GMT

disney world was great. i was going to list all of the cooool shit, but kaitlin already did it. so whatevvv. look at her journal if you'd like. but, i love you kaitlin. i'm so glad we went. can't wait until june, or august, whichever it may be. oh yeah, and i'm not even going to say i'll post pictures later, because i always say that, and never ever do.

so a lot of things in my life have been changing. some for the good, some for the bad. and most are hard to deal with. but as of today, i've finally accepted one of those things, and realized there is nothing i can do about it, and just move on.

buut on to bigger and better things. i suck at life and have like 10,000 bills to pay because i'm ridiculous with credit cards. but hopefully by the end of this month i'll have everything paid off. start with a clean slate, and hide some of my credit cards for awhile.

me and desiree hung out the other day. how fucking random. but it was nice. i think we've both changed alot. in a good way.

life is so weird. goooosh.

i'm trying to not get so upset about things now-a-days. trying to take bad situations/feelings/whatever and look for the positive in it.

alright. i'm done.

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 15:41:41 GMT

i went to update, but i don't know what to write about.

mm, i won $100 at the casino tuesday night.
the next day i went to the beach with melissa. then i hung out with kaitlin for a bit.
slept over codys wednesday. thursday sleeeppt all day, then went to the mall with kaitlin.

now today i don't know what i'm doing. but i'd really like to see amityville horror.

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 16:03:37 GMT

R.I.P. Poppop.

this is the hardest thing i've ever had to go through. besides everything that happened with my dad. i can't believe it. it doesn't feel like it's real. i don't know what i believe in, i don't know if they're is a heaven, or what happens in the after life. so i will just say i hope he's in a better place.

i just feel so bad for my grandma. i don't know what she's going to do by herself.

i've never been to a funeral. i'm scared.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 18:23:55 GMT

i'm sitting in the bcc library. so insanely bored, waiting for brittany to get out of class. today i woke up at 7:10 thanks to kaitlin. i'm so happy i actually didn't go back to bed.

me and brittany went to the gym from like 8:30-11:15ish. it's so nice. we worked out. swam. took a shower. then we ate at fridays. and now i'm here. ready to shoot somebody in the face.

i feel like everyones reading what i'm typing.

i haaave class tonight. how amazing. ohmygosh.

i'm seriously trying so hard not to fall asleep right now. i went and sat in the back of the library and laid down and i started to fall asleep but i made myself stop, because then brittany would have never found me.

alright. going to go walk around.

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 04:32:07 GMT

i'm at kaittllinnnn's. we're finally hanging out. i love her, but she doesn't love me anymore. i can tell. hah. i'm sleeping over then going home bright and early.

so me and brittany got L.A Fitness gym memberships today. i'm so excited. we also went shopping at hollister and got some hot shit.

i really have nothing else to say.

alright then. goodbye.

Thu, 24 Mar 2005 23:25:25 GMT

uuggHHH.

i was so excited about my class tonight. every thursday i'm like YYYEESS bc of class. but it turns out we don't have class tonight, bc of spring break. they didn't even tell us, she just called 40 minutes before class to let us all know.

well atleast i can do a few things i wanted to do. clean my closet. do a page or two of my scrapbook. maybe go to the mall.

last night was fabbbulous. me and cody went to benihanas. i can't get enough of that place. it's amazing.

I MISS TIFFANY. A LOT. i'm going to call her tonight.

i miss a lot of people. even people around me. as weird as that sounds.

dunn dun DUN.

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 04:40:33 GMT

today is cody and i's two year anniversary. didn't feel special at all though, because we're celebrating wednesday.

went to dania jai alai with him and evan. they played poker. i betted on jai alai.

since i got home about 5 hours ago, i've done absolutely nothing.

i'm getting a scion xb. i have a new found love for them. at first i thought they were so ugly. buut not anymore. i will get one.

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 17:57:18 GMT

i haven't worked in forever, because i was sick. i love it. now that i'm better it's my regular days off. so i'm kind of just living a jobless life this week.

i can't even remember anything i did this week.
oh.
me and brittany went to boomers and rode the hurricane like 15 times or something.
me, cody, and mario went and saw hostage. i liked the plot, just seemed like there was a few loose ends when it was over.

me and cody went to metro zoo yesterday! it was fun. i like doing different things. i haven't been there since i was like 13 probally. and of course we bought wax animals.

then i had my class last night. best class EVER. this recently retired miami dade homicide detective was there. he was amazing. i could've listened to him talk for days. he even like introduced us to an old case he had, went through every detail about it with us. showed us pictures of the bodies, the house, everything. it was great.

then i slept at kaitlins house. and we watched dane cook. funny guy.

tonight i want to do something fun. buut of course i'm probally just going to sit here and read magazines or something. bc everyone has different ideas of fun then i do.

i think i'm going to go to barnes and noble soon. yyyeeess.

Sun, 13 Mar 2005 20:08:46 GMT

ooooh life is great right now.

i feel as if i'm dying. i'm literally coughing up random organs. and i threw up twice already.

so i called work just to make sure there was no way she didn't me. and she ended up getting someone to work tonight for me. AND i don't have to work at 11 tommorow. i might have to come in at 5 tommorow, but atleast i can rest all night, and tommorow. i love my job.

i wish cody was awake and would bring me some soup. mMMMMMMMm. i'll just make my own.

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 00:00:35 GMT

o m g. hahh. okay so last night i didn't get to go to NFG because i had class, and pretty much no one to go with. so like whatev, i was upset, but oh well. BUT i did get to go to the after party at pangea with brittany and ashleey. great stuff. it was fun. and i got pictures with jordan, chad, and cyrus. i will post pics later. (i always say that, and i never do. bc it never works for me, lol)

today was good. i'm sick. a-fucking-gain. i was like throwing up, spitting up blood, and blood is coming out of my nose. i think i may have ebola. hahh. so i went to work. and after being there for like 3 minutes they let me go home=). because they had 7 girls on the floor anyway. which was totally unnessecary.

so now i'm just sitting at home. i wish i had the energy to clean my closet. arrgh. oh well. gathering tickets went on sale an hour ago. i'll probally buy mine sometime this week, when i'm not poor.

anyyywaaays. i'm going to go. im still in my work clothes. gross.

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 19:20:59 GMT

life is so funny. hah.

i wish you knew how i felt.

i'm so bored. once again. sitting at my house. by myself.

uuuuuuuuuuuuugh. not trying to get attention or anything. but i really do wish i was dead right now.

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 05:43:41 GMT

today was the greatest day everrr.

i love police officers.

soo my day pretty much consisted of:
sitting in the lobby of the police department for 45 minutes.
driving through random neighborhoods.
arresting shoplifters. (p.s. i've heard burdines has the craziest security/cameras. today i SAW the crazy security/camers. insane.)
watching them do paperwork.
almost getting hit by a dumbfuck who failed to stop at the stop sign. then writing him a ticket =).
giving speeders tickets.
watching some kids get searched. them dump their weed.
searching charter middle with a k9 dog. going through alll the classrooms. felt like i spent my entire life there.
going out to dinner with lovely officer yap.
going to an accident on sheridan. this kid went over the median, knocking over one of those huge palm trees, then flipped over. he got airlifted away. he just had minor injuries though.

etc.

i loved it. i can't wait. nothing too exciting happened, but it was good enough for me.
i wish i could do do this everyday.

weeelll, i'm done. im tired, and codys on his way over=)

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 02:30:39 GMT

i'm really bored.

i want to go to the casino. but i have nobody to go withh =( lol

i may just go to walmart by myself in a little bit.

i can't wait for the next three days. no work finally. my class. then my ride along. greeat stuff.

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Sat, 26 Feb 2005 07:20:25 GMT

another loneellaaay night. hah, it's okay, i'm happy. whateva.

i love my boyfriend.

i'm so excited for the gathering, and planning it all out.

woork is so gay. i hate working. only on friday nights though. i can't mentally handle it. too chaotic. i cry every time i work friday nights.

i want to go shopping tommorow! really, really badly. if anybody wants to go shopping with me, let me know. otherwise, i'm going solo, which is okay with me, but having a friend there is nice.

i love my police class. i'm going on my ride along on march 4th. so exciting. i'm going on the 3pm-1am shift. people of pembroke pines, go out and make some crime, so i can be there when he arrests you.

oooh yes. tommorow i'm going to the gun range for the first time with cody and steve. that's hot.

i love good mood entries.
i looove just trying not to give a fuck about the way people make me feel, and just trying to enjoy life instead of wasting it away and being upset because of some dumb fucks.